i'm a stupid gir @/@l

i don't like to be a loser.
why i can't to be a strong girl.
why i can't use one chance to get pass.
i will so sad a long time when i do  any thing failure.
why i will sad easy when i hear talking about my doing is wrong.
why i'm a timid people just like mouse
why i always can't make a decide and can't make a  answer , when i meet a problem
i will  take  SPM result on this Wednesday
i  didn't feel any nervous,may be this is my habits i can't make a choice ..who can help me???
i scared i will feel sorry that to my future when make a wrong choice
i really really really quite scared